Monday, 06 June 2011

  • oo1.

    Do you think that it's okay to do whatever you want, regardless of how it makes other people feel?
    In a way, yes because you have to do what makes you happy. But you can't leave other people's feelings out because you wanna be a selfish cunt. 


    Are you comfortable with the idea of homosexuality, and with being around those who happen to be homosexual ?
    It doesn't bother me at all.. idk why people make it such a big deal it's not like its a disease you can catch, grow up.

    What does the last text you received concern?
    Nothing, i was talking to my baby.<3 


    Are you on good or bad terms with the second to last person you dated?
    Uhm, it's kinda whatever thing. He wants me back because he realized what a fucktard he was and i'm happy with my boyfriend now. ;]

    Do you judge people, and then lie about it?
    I think everyone judges people when they first meet them, but to the question no i will always tell someone what i first thought about them if they asked me


    Do you get bothered by what people think of you?
    Nope, fuck them ;]

    If you became a doctor, would you help your patients kill themselves?
    OMG, wtf who does that ... that's horrible ;\ and no. lol


    When will you next see the last person you texted?
    Uhhhhhhhhh... idk?


    Would you bang Jeffree Star?
    uhm, no.

    Do you ever think people hate you for filling this out?

    Nope.


    When will be the next time you text someone?
    Todayyyyyyy.
     


    Do you catch yourself running from situations?
    I run from everything .. like as soon as shit gets too rough ... but i'm slowly learning there's some things, well most things you cannot run from.

    Honestly, when is the last time you have been to Texas?
    never?

    Do you ever wonder what other people are thinking when they stare at you?
    Not really ... but i get really pissed off if people are just like staring in my face... smfh.

    Have you ever had major surgery?
    Nope.


    Do you know anyone addicted to heroin?
    I know people who used to be.

    Does throwing up always make you feel better?
    hellllll no. 


    Do you ever have to take a deep breath to keep from freaking out?

    Often. << yeah.


    How has your day been so far? 
    chillllllllll 


    What were you doing the last time 5pm rolled around? 
    Yesterday? xbox. Today? watching tv .. OH YEAHHH i'm exciting.


    What was the last thing you ate? 
    Carrots.

    Are you listening to anything right now? 
    The tv.


    Are you still dating the same person you were dating this time last year? 
    Nopppeee.

    Do you pick up pennies for good luck? 
    Naw.

    Have you ever rode in a taxi? 
    Yessssss, many many many times.

    Are you left handed? 
    Yeah man!


    If you found $30 on the street, what would you do with it? 
    Keep it? 

    Do you wear glasses/contacts? 
    Glasses sonn.


    If so, since when? 
    forever?

    Do you have a sister? 
    i doooo and i love herrr.

    Can you make yourself cry on purpose? 
    Nope.

    Do you know anyone with the same first name as you? 

    Yeah.

    Do you have a step parent? 
    yessss.

    What letter does your middle name start with? 
    C.

    Are you interested in anyone at the moment? 
    nope i love someone ;]

    Do you have any tattoos? 
    yes, seven.

     

    Or piercings? 
    Yep.

    If not, do you want any?  
    Tattoos.

    Are you biracial? 
    nopee.

    What do you have to do tomorrow? 
    schooollllll.

    Do you suppose anyone took the time to read this?
    prolly notttt 

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

  • " Have you ever been in a relationship that was just based on games? Like he won't text you unless you text first, or if you don't text him for a while, he texts you just to make sure you still care. Have you ever been in a relationship where it is just a constant mindfuck? As in he says "I love you" then a second later, he turns around and acts cold. What is this about?! Whenever I am in a relationship, I hate playing games. I like to be as honest as possible - I am talking about being honest with feelings.

    Yes, I know, you should be honest in all aspects in a relationship...but sometimes things happen. I am not making excuses for what I did but this is not what this blog is about. I am basically his tool; I go around and do shit for him and when there is nothing left for me to give, he will have sex with me in the "heat" of the moment then not communicate with me for the next few days. Everyone tells me I should move on and let him go and I don't deserve this kind of pain, but I feel that I am putting myself through this pain so I can earn forgiveness. I feel so stupid and used every day I am not with him, then when I am with him, I feel like I have another chance and totally forgive him for being an ass.

    I really want to stop playing games - it is killing me. But I deserve it; my sister says that I must hate myself because I keep on going back to him. I have to agree with her - I don't really care that much about what happens to me or if my feelings get hurt. I know that when I get my car back on Tuesday he will call me and we will bust more missions and make more money...probably have sex...sleep...get smoked out, eat, go home and I won't see him for a few days... and REPEAT. I wish I had the strength to pull away, but I am a weak person.

    I wish he would just hit me instead of mindfucking me. Like "shut up bitch I'm trying to talk",  at least he would be honest then and I would hate him for hitting me. But I probably wouldn't since I would just say again that I deserve it. There is something about this guy that makes me crazy. I can't really handle it anymore. But I know that I can't stay away. So no matter what I do, I lose; i stay with him and my mind slowly goes numb and insane and I am so inane to him he wouldn't notice a difference in my behavior. I leave him and I miss him every day he is not next to me, and plead for him mentally. Do I want him to notice? Yes, of course I do. I want him to ask me what is wrong, and then cuddle me to death."

    damn, i can't even begin to describe how i feel about this blog entry. It's like everything i was going to write about a situation and then BAM i ran into this. -nod's. that's it. My situation in perfected word's. Comment if you wanna.

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